My Thoughts

And things that have come to pass

not in any particular order

A DIGNIFIED DEATH 1950'S

yes, my grandfather died of a heart attack, no fancy words, just that.

I don't ever remember him sick, or slowing down, he was always cheerful, busy in the garden, the day he died he was completing a new garage for his car,

grandfather was great, and he died in an easy way,

we were sitting down eating out lunch, a plate of spaghetti with meatballs, (ohh red meat)

and grandmother and mom were in the garden, hanging out the laundry and tending to the grapes and flowers.

grandfather and I were talking and I heard a hiss type of sound and his face fell into the spaghetti dish, no twitching, no movement, just plop.

his glorious white silver hair showing.

I ran to the neighbors and asked for a bottle of alcohol

rubbed his back, no movement, went to the phone, cranked it and spoke to the operator, something is wrong with grandfather, send help.

no stay on the line, no be calm, no questions.

i then went to the garden and told grandmother and mom something was wrong with grandfather, and only then did I hear wailing.

What a great way to die, happy, content, eating and with your granddaughter.

No meds, no slowing slowing down, no hospitals, no doctors,

wow, what a great death,

a death with dignity, except for the sauce.

no autopsies, no police questions, just a death of the 1950s.

Grandfather was 63.

AND DEATH OF THE 2000'S

pills for this and pills for that, one making the other part sicker, side effects of pills, doctor visits, lab test, pensions eaten up by medications, and guess what, you die a slow lingering death, without dignity, tubes, hospitals, autopsies, and no spaghetti.

What a cruel fate is old age.. live and enjoy life, it all ends in a bloody box.

Apples under the tree at Hagalund

In the fall of 1970 a young and beautiful girl picks some apples from under a tree. The storm that erupted from these sweet apples lingers still to this day. From this storm she finds the love of her life and they weather the families prejudices against her. In the years that follow they find out why his baby sister was dead at birth, she was murdered by bitter aunts and how his father who found his daughter wrapped in newspapers under the stairs, carried his grief alone nearly till his death when he finally reveled the truth to the girl who picked the sweet apples.

That time of year

I LOVE CHRISTMAS. NOT SO MUCH THE FEELING OF MOST, BUT THE DECORATIONS, THE TREE, THE SMELL OF APPLE PIE BAKING. I REALLY FEEL BAD THAT AMERICAN KIDS CAN'T JUST BE FREE TO ENJOY LIFE AS I DID GROWING UP. POLITICAL CORRECT SUCKS OUT THE LAUGHTER IN LIFE!!!!!

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January 2nd, 2008

The children and robie are on a train as i write this, just spoke with robie, he is exhausted, poor darling. hope he gets a good nights sleep. i too am so so tired, my eyes hand heavy and my body just goes from one room to another in a very slow and paced way, even heidi is tired. i give pauli and pirjo 1000 gold stars for the great care they give these kids, however they manage, it's a miracle. still it was fun and exciting, but i know we could never have them again without a nanny here too.

thanks for the time with the kids and now i shall go to sleep.

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28 december 2007

johnny learned to make pizza topping, tomorrow he will make the dough. johnny and tobi went swimming with grandpa and I had time to bath myself in peace at home. tonight the kids went crazy with candy, not johnny as he is no longer a kid, take note; see black and white photo.the kids went to bed at 9 pm and johnny is going off now at 10 pm.

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27 december 2007 Dec 28, '07 3:00 PM

tobi went to the play park and climbed everything he could climb, he learned about hydo electric power plants with robie, they just build one here, studied the village bulletin board, so iittala's factory.

when he came home he wanted me to spike his hair, note photo. heather's fervour went down but she slept nearly all day. johnny did what he does best, played the video game.

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Dec 26, '07 2:22 PM

#11 boxing day

what a day, to the health center in the morning with heather, poor darling, she hated going but heidi is like pauli and can talk anyone into anything and make it fun. heather is good about taking such foul tasting medicines, as a child i use to throw up liquids, heather is brave. it's been a good day, the meds work and heather and tobi painted and played and watched the flintstones on tv. I only allow one program a day and they are fine with that. Johnny finished his model plane with Heidi, he started it last summer and now it's painted and detailed. looks great. I had a sleep and while sleeping, someone took a picture of my big old backside with tobi posing, I was so fast asleep I didn't know anything. Imagine my surprise when I just opened it, well tobi is so cute, I had to post it.

Tags: big ackside, meds, flintstones, model planes

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Dec 25, '07 10:15 AM

#10 sleepy

the little ones are asleep, heather seems nearly better, only 100 degrees F. and us elders are so tired, we are going to rest now too. later tonight we might make cookies, let's see. the 3 kids made all fashion gifts today, heather painted a box for her mom, tobi strung up a pearl necklace and johnny made a chain of popcorn for the birds. well the turkey is hitting me too, night-night

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Dec 25, '07 10:10 AM

#9 mixed emotions

i know i'm a grandma, and getting old, but my grand kids, they are such a new generation. these kids know they can control me by voice alone, they get louder and louder and tobi becomes so aggressive, he breaks anything he can get his hands on when someone or something upsets him, be it his sister, brother or us 2 oldies. so far we have been fairly quiet and peaceful, but those darn xmas stocking and the candy, sugar rage, what a rage, now Robbie sees for himself. this morning tobi was showing his all to everyone and running after heather. I had to get johnny to get him dressed, still he thinks he is cute when he is out, but your talk helped and the barn door is closed. Still after all is said and done, they did eat turkey, stuffing and yams, they said they wouldn't eat anything, when I say they, I mean thee 2 little one.

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Dec 24, '07 10:16 AM

#8 äitille ja isälle

mun piti vaan sanoa että mitä teille kuuluu , ja mitä te teette . mulla on vieläkin vähän kuumetta . onko teillä ikävä Hetaa,Topia JA Jonia mä haluun

tietää. HYVÄÄ JOULUA

TEILLE ISÄ JA ÄITI

T:HEATHER MARIA

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Dec 24, '07 10:14 AM

#7 xmas eve

we have had a regular day, heather rested till the afternoon and I even had an hour nap. tobias is enchanted with his cuteness and teases everyone, sometimes a little too much, but he is 6, going on 7 and thinks he is the prince of this house. heather's fervour is down and she even went for a walk in the woods with tummeli and heidi. johnny is busy trying to win the 100 euro reward for the child with the least teasing, shouting, giving orders and neatness. Heather would you believe it is giving everyone a run for the money, this girl is an endless bag of surprises. i hope i could split the reward in 3, lets see. I now have to go, preparing the xmas stockings for tomorrow, and have to get the turkey, stuffing, apple and pumpkin pies ready. we also will have yams, (sweet potatoes) cornbread, mashed potatoes, eggnog, (non alcoholic) peas and pearl onions. let's see what the kids will eat..

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Dec 23, '07 1:39 PM

#6 äitille

mä oon kipee mul on kuumetta ja on tylsää.mul on ikävä sua ja isää.

tummelil on jouluinen kaula panta hänen päällää. mul on ihana sänky ja

se on ihanan pehmeä.mulle kuuluu aika hyvää.mitä teille kuuluu?

sano isälle että lukee tämän. OKEI?

T:Heta

HYVÄÄ JOULUA

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Dec 23, '07 1:20 PM

#5 evening once again

Heather has been resting all day, she has the fervour but it has gone down, perhaps tomorrow she will have her dancing legs back. I miss her active mode, who who have thought. Tobias is here and there and everywhere, tasting carefully needs foods and playing with legos. Johnathan has learned to cook, irish stew, with Guinness and red wine, it is fantastic. This teenager soon to be is unusal, he is so easy to be with, this kid is either very good or a very good actor.

Tags: fevour, dancing, cooking, stew, actors

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Dec 23, '07 12:46 AM

#4 sunnuntai

hyvää huomenta isä ! mitä kuuluu.T:Heta

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Dec 22, '07 2:42 PM

#3. first evening

things went pretty well, a cup of tea went all over the front of me, and I had a dress on, trying to be a grandmother, so it's now in the wash. Tobias had just had a bath and was all clean and had his evening snack and droped the food on his lap and shirt, after that he was playing on the chair, my back was turned and he fell off and hit his head on the dresser. Robbe swooped him up and comforted him, I forgot how he adores kids and is so gentle and kind. Tobias was soon comforted and wanted to go to bed, but I keep him up for another hour as all head injury's must be watched.

Heather and Tobias are now sleeping, They were in bed by 8 P:M:

Johnny is on the computer just now as he just had a late evening snack and likes his rage game.

Well I shall hang the laundry and the rag rug. Thank God for washing machines.

Tags: rag-rug, washing machine, tea, dress, injury, snack, sleeping

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Dec 22, '07 2:34 PM

#2. at home

well we arrived home with poor heather looking like a comatose patient, she could hardly walk and their was no bounce. I put her straight to bed and she just slept instantly. I went off with Tobias and Johnathan to get some more foods, I let them go wild with their chooses and we came home. Robbe and Heidi put things away and I made a not so interesting dinner. Tomorrow starts the real food. Speaking of food, I bought a real fresh turkey and also 2 Guinness beers to teach johnny to make Irish stew because he complains about lihakeitto, so I thought to teach him the real lihakeitto from Ireland.I don't know much about beer but they froze in the back of the truck and opened and their was beer all in the bag and when I carried it in it went on the hallway carpet and clean kitchen floor. And what a mess. Heather steped in it as she took her boots off before going up to bed. So, so much for beer in the irish stew. I have to explain, I had the turkey before picking the kids up, so that is why it came in first with Heather.

Tags: beer, irish stew, turkey, socks

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Dec 22, '07 2:26 PM

#1. at the bus station

Well I arrived in good time to fetch the kids from the bus station. It was cold and grey but in my heart it was warm and fussy. I was so excited to have the 3 kids for xmas. A bit like Queen Elizabeth and her grandchildren. She only likes them when they are old enough to ride horses.

Well I have always loved these little ones, even when I didn't know them, but today was a big day for me.

The bus was 30 minutes late, poor kids, and when they opened the door to the bus, what a smell, farts like a swamp. Too many people, too much drink and the wrong foods. Poor kids. Heather was pale and sunk in her face. Topias was his usual bouncing ball and Johnny look relieved to be off the bus.

Tags: bus, travel, queen

sorsakoski

grand mother marie

Do you love me after 36 years?

Similarities

Spent time in orphanages in childhood

Think a lot

Married before

Visited by angels

Like swimming

Are linguists

Agree on child rearing, nutrition, etc.

Have sweet tooths

Both love each other very much

We both love animals

We both have dead baby siblings

RH comes from a family of four, MA come from a family of four

We both love our own space

We both love children

We both hate gossips

We both love sex

We both had first sons born in 1964

We both defend and protect our family with fervor, God help anyone who tries to hurt us

We are both Catholics

Odd occurrences

RH knew what MA looked like and where we'd meet at least 15 years before we met

We both lived in south England in 1963 - 1964 but never met

We both went to NY Worlds Fair in May 1964 but never met

MA moved to Finland in June 1967 when RH's marriage to Diza broke up

RH's mother came to me in a dream before I met you

RH's mother visited with me after Robin was born

Differences

MA talks a lot. RH has to be prodded to speak.

RH can sleep anywhere. MA can't sleep in strange places.

MA thinks fast. RH thinks slowly.

MA observes everything. RH lives in happy ignorance.

MA is an excellent driver. RH isn't.

MA thinks laterally. RH within the box.

MA likes PCs. RH loves Macs.

MA has a temper. RH seethes.

MA senses things. RH is dense.

MA is claustrophobic, RH is not

MA always has new ideas

MA is creative and inventive, RH maintains things

RH is tolerant, MA is a racist and opinionated

RH is tall and MA is short

RH is religious, MA is a doubting Thomas

RH has a genius IQ, MA is ingenious

MA loves to nap, RH plugs on

MA loves to travel and bullshit, RH loves to save the world by talking and writing

MA is a clown and actor.

RH has a quick sense of wit

RH has guys and dolls come on to him and he doesn't notice.

MA has guys and dolls come on to her and she takes advantage of it.

MA flirts with people. RH would be killed by me if he did.

MA is voluptuous and RH is cuddly.

RH is a sympathetic observer. MA is criminally manipulative.

MA tells lies to get what she wants. RH can't lie except to the Secret Service.

MA is a communist. RH is an anarchist.

But of course he loves me, and I love him too.

36 years nearly complete

yawn yawn yawn

Finnish killing of 7 students and one teacher

why does a finnish youth kill. finnish youth don't have love at home, they are not hugged or listened to, they are not guided or brought to places of beauty. most finnish fathers are alcoholics, mothers usually single, working hard to pay for an overpriced flat, over priced food and little joy in a society where you are considered drunk if you talk to a stranger. i have lived in this country for a long time, an as an american italian have seen this silent abuse laid onto these children. my children's friends are shocked when they see me hug my adult kids. Many ask me to give them a hug. Finland is dark at this time of year and the people already retarded in silence have woken the beast of what the youth have see on television and video games. more for sure is to come.

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