2019 comes to an end and welcome 2020!

The year 2019 is finally coming to and end, I can't wait to see what will happen next year, 2020. I will turn 75, Robie will be 80, and we will celebrate our 50th wedding anniversary. The greatest thing about these events we will celebrate them together, alone. We never had the false needs to be around those we love, our love for our family has been deep but our love for each other is even deeper and although we have some of the greatest fights any couple have ever had, I am so thankful only one of us have the anger or else we would have long ago killed each other. I've often thought why I get so mad, and I think it stems from jealousy.  Hard words to write, but where he has been given so many honours and his career has been one giant leap up the ladder, where I have had to fight my way into even becoming a mother and wife. I have a great fear of letting outsiders into my life and have always just wanted to be a walk-in with an easy trap door to leave. I am there for those who need me, but I  want to walk away after the needs are met. There is but one for many years I call a friend, and she knows who she is. From being a great care giver to two of our children, a godmother as well, I thank her with all my heart. Each day when I do the dishes I think of her mother, and say, well I have to do a Mrs. H. now. 

December 29 2019

TWENTY TWENTY

2020

ON THE 8TH DAY OF THE NEW YEAR

LOOKS LIKE ANOTHER BORING YEAR

MY 75TH BIRTHDAY